Mother’s Day Morning – Did a 3k for Breast Cancer with a friend on her first Mothers Day. Seeing her face was amazing. She is wearing motherhood well.
Mother’s Day Afternoon – Received news a dear sister friend left this place. My heart broke. My face was swollen from crying. I didn’t understand. I still don’t. I’ve stopped trying.
Monday Morning – Mother’s Day Mass at my oldest sons school. Quite moving. I was recognized for having held a position on the Executive Board of the Mothers’ Club. My son was recognized for his excellence in Chess and Student Council. The Father spoke a sermon that eased my soul. Lunch with other moms afterwards rested my spirit.
Monday Afternoon – A sister friend brought a new life into this world. As we all reeled from our loss, we were suddenly thrust into celebration of this new life. The world kept spinning.
Tuesday Morning – My God-Daughter went into premature labor and delivered my newest god-child at six months. Little Precious was 1lb 15oz. My soul was sent into a tailspin again from the emotional roller coaster.
I want off this ride.
Wednesday Morning – Take my oldest to the doctor who advises upon inspection of his hand, he will need surgery IMMEDIATELY on his finger to save it. Like in two days immediately.
Sigh. It still isn’t over.
Thursday Morning – Mostly quiet
Thursday Afternoon – Yet another friend is about to travel to deal with a sick GranGran.
Seriously, I wanna get off. Stop the ride.
Friday Morning – My son has surgery on his finger. I was elated to hear that it was able to be fixed without additional invasive measures.
Whew, maybe I am getting a reprieve.
Friday Afternoon – I was given the choice to speak at the memorial for my sister friend, and I took it. She should be celebrated. I want to do my part. Head spinning again.
Right now – writing this all out has helped. My brain is still on a roller coaster ride of emotions, but I know it will be ok. Soon. Maybe.
Until then, please don’t ask how I am doing, because I do not know.
I just am.