False Expectations Appearing Real
Have you ever wondered what you are afraid of and why are you afraid of it? No? Ok then, well, I’m gonna just talk about me here for a minute iffin ya don’t mind….
I have an unnatural amount of fear. Fear of things I have no real reason to be afraid of – letting go, moving forward, succeeding, completing a task.
One of the few things I have been successful at over the years is failing or not completing a task. I mean I had gotten REALLY good at it. Like I started this post 2/28/11, its 3/9/11. I was once told that my procrastination issue was a sign of being a perfectionist. I laughed. Out Loud. Hysterically. Once I could breathe again, the woman who said it said, think about it – you put things off because you want to do it the absolute best you can or whats the point in doing it? I tried my best to figure out how she had gotten into my head and knew what I was thinking but thats besides the point – I agreed with her. I am a perfectionist. In regards to certain things of course, but a perfectionist none the less. I had never even considered this as a possibility, but it does make sense.
Why do something if you cant do it right, every time?
The flip side to this train of thought is that generally things don’t get done.
Like the 12 loads of laundry in my basement.
Or the cleaning of my desk.
Or my van, Mags.
Or my bedroom.
You get the idea.
So I guess the point of this is don’t be afraid.
Take the step forward.
Don’t let things hold you back.
Just in writing this post, I got 2 loads of laundry done. I’m feeling good.
Fear got smaller.